:(

Today, I came to the painful conclusion that there is no way forward for
my marriage to proceed that I can see at this time. We will be starting the
dissolution process with an attorney tomorrow. It's sad. It's very sad actually,
that it's come to this. But what choice did I really have in the matter?

I can't take any more of these complications, foot-dragging and hand-wringing.
The loss of appetite... sleepless nights... constant anxiety... all the worrying...
all the soul searching... all the anger... all the tears... all the loneliness...

All this needless drama is starting to affect my health. And saying nothing
about what all this mess is doing to my current mental state. I loved my wife
with all my heart. Even through all of this, I still love her with all my heart.
And probably always will. But I don't know how to fix the situation we find
ourselves in. Or, if it even can be fixed. I've tried everything last thing I could
possibly think of to fix things. And none of it has worked.

At this point, I've just given up on getting my wife back. It makes me so sad.

Right now, I'd just settle for getting my best friend back at some point.
I would really just like to get my friendly Monkey back...
That would be a nice start.

ps. I hate this whole, entire situation. Hate it.
It's not fair. And this is NOT what I wanted for us.
This is NOT how I thought it would end up for us.

Grr. It's just not fair.
At all.
:(